（I want nothing for myself﹐I want everything for the Lord!）
M.E. Barber (1866-1930)
First Edition, 2000
Chicago Bibles and Books
The Christian life is a matter of the divine, eternal life. The Lord came that His flock might have life and have it abundantly (John 10:10). In His resurrection He sent His apostles to feed His sheep (John 21:15, 17), again taking the principle of life. The Apostle Paul also followed this pattern. He considered his words not merely as teachings, but also as food to the church (1 Cor.:2) and to his fellow workers (1 Tim. 4:6).
However, in order to reach its full potential, life requires training and discipline. The higher the expectation is, the more training is required. For this reason the Lord charged Peter not only to feed but also to shepherd His sheep (John 21:16). God uses discipline to bring forth the peaceable fruit of righteousness in His children (Heb. 12:7, 11), and He continually breathes His word to convict and correct us (2 Tim. 3:16).
In this little book we consider the Lord's servant, Miss Margaret E. Barber, who became a seed of the divine life in China. She learned the lessons of life, strictly disciplining herself to follow the Lamb in detailed obedience while also becoming a pattern to train the younger believers. Through this process she became a faithful steward, committing her learning to faithful men who later became competent teachers also (2 Tim. 2:2). Perhaps the most notable of those under her training hand was Watchman Nee.
By taking up the burden to move from Great Britain to China for the Lord's interest, Miss Barber deeply experienced the cross and learned to live by faith. Her poems, some of which are included in this volume, exhibit her deep experiences of Christ. She was very much in the Lord's presence, and she eagerly anticipated His coming back.
In China she lived in a suburb of Foochow, traveling little and receiving no publicity. She simply prayed for the Lord's move and helped those who sought her counsel in seeking after the Lord. Through Miss Barber, Watchman Nee obtained a foundation for his spiritual life. When the young Brother Nee would admire the eloquence, knowledge, ability, zeal, or natural power of persuasion shown by a Christian speaker, Miss Barber would point out that these things were neither of life nor of the Spirit. They could stir people up but could never minister life to people. She paid more attention to life than to work. She also warned the young brothers against doing a popular work, which would bring shipwreck to their spiritual life. By deliberately putting himself before Miss Barber's instruction and strict rebukes, Brother Nee received much help.
In Witness Lee's biography of Watchman Nee (Watchman Nee: A Seer of the Divine Revelation in the Present Age, Anaheim: Living Stream Ministry, 1991, 18), he mentions the help Watchman Nee got from Dora Yu and Margaret Barber: "He frequently others that it was through a sister [Dora Yu] that he was saved and that it was also through a sister [Margaret Barber] that he was edified." It was Sister Barber who introduced Watchman Nee to the writings of D.M. Panton, Robert Govett, G.H. Pember, Jessie Penn-Lewis, and T. Austin-Sparks.
For this booklet we have put together a brief biography of Miss Barber along with several of her poems and letters and some words spoken in memorial to her going to be with the Lord. The biography was translated from a source found in Mainland China, which does not give its author. It has been edited and corrected in some points. The poems were collected from The Dawn magazine (edited by D.M. Panton), from The Overcomer (edited by Jessie Penn-Lewis), and from Witness and Testimony (edited by T. Austin-Sparks). Twenty-two other poems of hers can be found in Hymns (published by Living Stream Ministry, Anaheim, California).
The compiler expresses his appreciation to many who helped put this booklet together. May the Lord use this volume to instruct His children for the fulfilling of His purpose in this age.
"As unknown" (2 Cor. 6:9)
M.E. Barber is little known, not only in the world in general, but also among most Christians. Some may realize that her name appears in Streams in the Desert, but that is about all. She was British, but we cannot find her name in The Dictionary of National Biography. She was a missionary, but she was not like David Livingston or Hudson Taylor, who accomplished great things. Her sphere of work was not large; it was mostly limited to an obscure village in a corner of China. She was not like John Wesley, who could say, "The whole world is my parish." She wrote hymns, but not like the hymns written by Charles Wesley or Isaac Watts, which can be found in most Christian hymnals. She loved the Lord and matured in the spiritual life, but she was not Madame Guyon or Andrew Murray, who left many writings that remain to the present.
It seems that she was a lonely traveler who quietly appeared on the earth. She was born in 1866 in Peasenhall, County Suffolk, England, the daughter of Louis (a wheelwright) and Martha (nee Gibbs) Barber. At 63 years of age, M.E. Barber was taken by the Lord. Within her short lifetime, she was twice called by the Lord to go to China. She gave up her home and traveled in a lonely way thousands of miles to a backward country. She lived in a village close to Foochow where she quietly gave her best years to work for the Lord, continuing faithfully unto her death on March 1, 1930. At her burial a brother said, "'She has done what she could' - like Mary" (Mark 14:8). Watchman Nee, who received much help from her, was not present at her burial, but he wrote later of his appreciation for her in his well-known book, The Normal Christian Life. In the last chapter, "The Goal of the Gospel" (printed separately under the title, Why This Waste?), he quoted her words: "Lord, I am willing to break my heart in order that I may satisfy Thy heart!"
Once someone asked her, "What are the requirements to work for the Lord?" She replied, "The requirement to work for the Lord is not to work." Some of the Chinese young people who received help from her were worried about her. They wondered, "Why doesn't she go out and establish meetings and work in a bigger city?" Instead, she lived in a small village where it seemed nothing was happening. It seemed that it was a waste for her to be there. One brother almost shouted at her, "No one knows the Lord as you do. You know the Bible in a most living way. Don't you see the need around? Why don't you go out and accomplish something? You just sit here seemingly doing nothing. You are wasting your time, energy, and money; you are wasting everything!"
Was there waste? After all these years, it is clear. She was a seed of life sown by God in China. This seed surely went through loneliness, humiliation, and seclusion. But thank God, He made her blossom and bear fruit. Only God knows how many people received spiritual help from her directly and indirectly. The marvelous thing is this: God caused her to bear fruit abundantly. While she was alive, God did not let her know this. "O the depth of the riches and wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are His judgments and untraceable His ways! For who has known the mind of the Lord, or who has become His
counselor?" (Rom. 11:33-34).
"Filled with the fragrance of the ointment" (John 12:3)
Miss Barber went to glory more than 50 years ago. Those helped by her who are still alive today can be counted on one hand. But time cannot dilute the deep impression she gave to us. One of the older sisters, who in her youth saw Miss Barber, remembered her:
She was neither tall nor short. She had a round face that gave the impression of being kind, weighty, godly, and sober. She was filled with the light of the Lord so that when people sat beside her they always felt comfortable. While she was speaking, her tone was soft and full of joy. She always had a smiling face that caused people to forget the suffering of human life. She could speak the Foochow dialect fluently.
Concerning the spiritual supply which Miss Barber rendered people, that same sister recalled, "The word she released was filled with light and life and caused people to leave all and follow the Lord their whole life." An older brother, who was a student when he first met her and who later became a spiritual son and co-worker of Miss Barber, remembered this:
The first time I met her, her eyes were like lightning, her hair was like silver, and her face was shining like an angel's. Her countenance was lovely, just like a mother's. Her behavior was holy, her dress was simple, and she was always smiling and kind.
She was different from other foreigners in China. Her walk was sober. She not only had a good reputation, but also was a good pattern. Everything she did was for the Lord, for the glory of God.
In The Normal Christian Life, Watchman Nee mentions an older sister who deeply affected him. This sister was Miss Barber. When she went to be with the Lord, he expressed his feeling: "She was one who was very deep in the Lord and, in my opinion, the kind of fellowship she had with the Lord and the kind of faithfulness she expressed to the Lord are rarely found on this earth." He often mentioned her in ministering and in his private talk. He said, "In all my life, she gave me the most help," and, "The biggest gain in my life was to know Miss Barber."
Brother Nee went to England and the United States in 1933. After meeting with some noted Christian leaders such as D.M. Panton, George Cutting, James Taylor, and T. Austin-Sparks, he said, "It is hard to find someone who can compare with Miss Barber." In 1933, when he talked with a co-worker concerning service, he expressed his feeling, "If Miss Barber were still here, our situation would be different." He considered her a shining Christian. As soon as he entered her residence, he felt the presence of God. When Brother Nee started to work for the Lord, he determined in his mind to obey the will of God no matter what the situation was, so he considered himself as already obeying the will of God. But whenever he went to see Miss Barber and talked with her concerning the Lord or read the Bible with her, he realized he was short in obeying the will of God.
When Miss Barber lived in Pagoda Anchorage, she always spoke for the Lord. God not only expressed His will through her speaking, but He also spoke through her person. Once Brother Nee testified, "I heard many brothers and sisters talk about being sanctified, so I began to study the doctrine of sanctification. I found approximately 200 verses concerning sanctification. I memorized them and put them in sequence. But what sanctification was, I still was not clear. I felt empty inside, until one day I met this elderly sister. She was holy. On that day my eyes were opened. I saw what it is to be sanctified. The person I met was holy. I had a very strong impression of this. That light caused me to push forward. I could not escape, and this caused me to see sanctification."
In 1922 Miss Barber was 56 years of age. Brother Nee was still young, having been saved for no more than two years. He was filled with many blueprints, grand ideas, and wonderful plans which could touch people and move them, all waiting for God's approval. He felt that it would be wonderful if the many things in his hands could be put into practice. He brought these to Miss Barber with great excitement, hoping to persuade her to agree that all of them should be done. Later he testified, "Before I opened my mouth to speak about my plans, she spoke some heavy words. Then the light came and put me to shame. My work was so natural, filled only with the human element. As the light came in, I was brought to the point that I could only tell the Lord, 'Lord! My mind is only paying attention to the activity of the flesh. Here is a person who never thinks about such things. Her only motive and hope is for God.'"
In one of her papers she had written, "I want nothing for myself; I want everything for the Lord." This was her prayer to the Lord. This word may have been drawn from the autobiography of a prominent national leader, who said, "For myself, I want nothing. I want everything for my country." Later, Watchman Nee quoted this impressive prayer as his motto. No doubt this prayer, which issued from the depths of her being, exactly described and explained Miss Barber's life.
"Dwelt as a foreigner in the land of promise"(Heb. 11:9)
Miss Barber first went to China in 1899. She was sent to the city of Foochow, Fukien, where she taught in the Tau Su Girls' High School (a school begun and operated by the Church of England) for seven years. Because she had the rich life of Christ overflowing in her excellent living, many students were attracted and desired her instruction. This made the principal jealous of. The principal accused her of ten "illegal" matters. While she was being carefully examined, she felt before the Lord, "If the thumb argues with the little finger, it only hurts the head; so I should just leave this school." She was completely obedient to the Lord and quietly left the Tau Su Girls' High School. Even so, a list of her "crimes" was sent to the headquarters of the British mission. At that time she learned to remain silent under the shadow of the cross. She would rather suffer misunderstanding than defend herself. She returned to England and continued to avoid vindicating herself until the brother responsible for the mission told her, "As your authority I charge you to tell me the facts of what happened in China. Don't hide anything." Then she told him what had happened.
After her return to England, she met Brother D.M. Panton, the editor of the Christian magazine, The Dawn. She received much help from him. He was clear about the matter of denominations. He also knew the prophecies of the Bible and the truths concerning overcoming. He influenced her to live as a person waiting for the Lord to come back. She stayed in England for two years. During that time she exercised faith and prayed that the Lord would open the way for her to go back to work in China. Finally in 1909, with fellowship from D.M. Panton and the Surrey Chapel, Norwich, where he ministered, she returned to China.
This time there was no big mission to support her. Her niece, Miss Ballard, who was twenty years her junior, accompanied her to China. Miss Ballard had her own little savings, but Miss Barber had only the Lord of Psalm 23 as her supply. Like Abraham, she trusted the Lord to supply her needs and to lead her where she should go. While the ship crossed the Min River in China, she quietly looked to the Lord in dependence for her needs and her future. When she came upon the beautiful scenery of Pagoda Anchorage, she felt that this was the location God had arranged for her work. Later she rented a house in Pagoda Anchorage and lived there until she departed to be with the Lord. The landlord was Sister Shia, who was the principal of an orphanage.
Pagoda Anchorage was an obscure place near the sea, and there Miss Barber lived in a simple house. This was in sharp contrast to the fine house where she had lived the first time she was in China. To reach her house from Foochow, one had to take a steamship to Mai Wei, then a little boat to a nearby village, then walk along the path on the hillside to some old wooden houses. In one of the houses was her bedroom, where she would fellowship with the Lord. Other houses were for hospitality.
Pagoda Anchorage to Miss Barber was like Canaan to Abraham. It was her "promised land." But would God take away this land? After Miss Barber had been living there for a while, the landlord decided that she needed the houses for the orphanage. She wanted Miss Barber to move, and she sent workmen to make repairs on the houses. It seemed that this was the end of Miss Barbers stay there. However, she trusted that God would not go against what He had promised. With confidence she prayed, "O Father God! I beg You to make Your promise firm." In the end, the landlord sent someone to tell her that the repaired houses would be hers to live in. She resided there until her departure to be with the Lord in 1930. Miss Ballard continued to work in Pagoda Anchorage until 1950, when she left God's "promised land" and returned to England.
"Having patiently endured, he obtained the promise" (Heb. 6:15)
Pagoda Anchorage was prepared by the Lord, but it was often clear that "God hath not promised skies always blue" (Hymns #720). One day, because of pressure from every side, she was fully discouraged and had no hope, but the Lord stood with her and empowered her. Because of this experience she wrote the following poem (Hymns #662):
"On toward the goal!" Press on!
Alone, yet unafraid;
He cut the path, who beckons thee,
On then, and undismayed.
"On toward the goal!" Press on!
The eyes that are a flame
Are watching thee, what then are men?
What matter praise, or blame?
"On toward the goal!" Press on!
Look not behind thee now,
When just ahead lies His "Well done,"
And crowns await thy brow.
"On toward the goal!" Press on!
Blind, deaf and sometimes dumb
Along the blood-marked, uphill way,
Hard after Christ, press on!
From the loneliness and hardship expressed in this poem, one can see what one of her co-workers meant when he recalled:
From the prosperous mountain city, Hwei Chen, she moved to unfamiliar Pagoda Anchorage, where she led a lonely, quiet life.
No one had the same mind as she had. No one sympathized with her. She had no financial support; she simply trusted the Lord to meet all her needs. At that time the western missionaries who lived in Foochow heard the rumors, "Miss Barber is staying in Pagoda Anchorage. She has a hard and poor life; often she does not have enough food and clothing." A missionary sister went to visit her to find out what was happening. When she arrived at Pagoda Anchorage, Miss Barber was feeding bread and milk to a puppy. This sister said, "The rumors concerning you are lies. God is giving you such amazing grace." Miss Barber listened and smiled, saying, "Thank the Lord! Praise the Lord!"
It was not the fact, however, that she never went through financial hardships. Once she had bills to pay, but her pockets were empty. At that time a modernist came to offer her some monetary help. Since he had told her not to be "superstitious" about God, she refused his help. Even though she needed the money desperately, she was faithful to trust the Lord, and the Lord took care of her needs. The next day, she received a large sum of money from Brother D.M. Panton in Norwich, England. She wrote a letter asking why he had mailed her the money. He replied that, at the time of her need, he had not been aware of her situation, but while he was praying, he had sensed that he should mail her the money.
Miss Barber cared for spiritual principles. She wanted to live like the Israelites who gathered manna in the wilderness every day or like Elijah who stayed by the torrent Cherith (1 Kings 17:3) waiting for God to command ravens to feed him with bread and meat. One day two brothers came from overseas to visit Miss Barber and her co-workers. These brothers were concerned about the co-workers' living and finances and suggested that the co-workers do some business for the Lord's sake such as mailing some Chinese green tea and embroidery to them. They would sell the tea and make a profit for the Lord's work. Miss Barber, however, refused their suggestions. She was faithful to keep her spiritual principles.
"Revive your work in the midst of the years" (Habakkuk 3:2)
Miss Barber was very much a person of prayer. She trusted that the Lord would supply not only her need but also the needs of the work. Both she and Miss Ballard deeply felt how limited they were in their flesh. Some wondered what two women could do for the Lord. They were weak sisters without the support of a mission, but they were not weak in spiritual insight. They wanted China, no matter how backward and vast it was, to turn to Christ. This seemed to be a distant dream, but they realized that God would rise up some young people for His own sake. For this they prayed specifically for over ten years.
God answered their prayer. Near their residence a big revival took place, and God rose up some young people who loved the Lord. Among them were Leland Wong, Lian Zin Wong, Faithful Luke, Zai-Shen Chen, Shin Zen Chang, and Watchman Nee. Among the sisters were Son-Fan Gi, Shi Gen Song, and Rei-Yu Lin. These sisters were deeply impressed with Miss Barber and moved in order to live with her and work together. Sister Gi gave up her job as a teacher, moved to Pagoda Anchorage, and stayed with Miss Barber until her departure. Later, when the Lord had taken Miss Barber and in memory of her, Sister Song felt led of the Lord to move to Pagoda Anchorage and be with Sister Gi until she also went to be with the Lord.
To meet the many spiritual needs, Miss Barber prepared a group of houses around her residence for the purpose of hospitality. One of those houses was used as a place of meeting. Here meetings were held regularly for edification. For one or two weeks she would help those students and young people who so desired. Some recall that during conferences three sessions of Bible study were held daily. After each meeting those who attended were expected to review their notes, write poems, and carry out their assignments. In addition to these conferences, truth classes were set up for friends in nearby villages who were hungry for the gospel. In these classes gospel truths such as the existence of God, man's sin, judgment, and the Lord's salvation could be expounded systematically. How was Miss Barber able to carry out the work of raising up people by training them? She did not rely on donations, nor did she trust in advertising or in strong financial backing. She simply trusted that God would meet the needs.
Once a brother named Dr. Mike visited Pagoda Anchorage from abroad. He went to see Miss Barber and contacted many of the dear co-workers. He was very happy and quite impressed with what he saw. Since the co-workers did not have a regular salary, he felt that their living must be hard. So he made a suggestion: "Why don't you give your group a name? After I go back to my country, I can report to my mission. They will mail you money regularly. Then you can work without ever worrying about finances." Miss Barber, however, stubbornly refused his suggestion. The way of faith is truly a lonely way.
What kind of help did she render the young people? We can get some idea from the recollections of an older sister:
Out of respect for her age, we called her Aunt Barber. She, however, did not agree. She said, "We are all in the Lord. No matter whether we are old or young, we are all the same. There is little difference concerning age in the Lord. You can just call me Sister Barber." From that time on, all the older sisters were called "sister." Her teaching of the sisters stressed that they should be serious and should aspire to be quiet and submissive. She referred repeatedly to the books of 1 Thessalonians and 1 Timothy, expounding these two books in detail. This left a deep impression.
She taught the sisters to obey the truth and the authorities. She stressed the crucial importance of head covering. She
encouraged the sisters to speak less, to learn to trust God, and not to have contentions of words, which are useful for nothing but to bring ruin to the hearers. She respected and treasured those who genuinely loved the Lord. She cared for Watchman Nee, Kwang-hsi Weigh, and Faithful Luke, taking them as her genuine children in faith. They, in turn, were touched to forsake everything and to serve the Lord all their lives.
"Apples of gold in pictures of silver" (Proverbs 25:11)
Around 1922, almost every Saturday for about a year, Watchman Nee would go to Sister Barber to receive help. Some young brothers who were raised up by the Lord with Brother Nee also went there for help. Soon, however, most of them were afraid to go, because she rebuked them severely. Her rebukes bothered them. One brother felt her dealing was unreasonable. But after being dealt with, they all felt they had received much help.
At that time there were seven young brothers meeting in Foochow every Friday for fellowship concerning church affairs. However, most of the time was spent in arguments between Brother Nee and another leader. This leading brother was five years older than Brother Nee. Each thought he was right and liked to criticize the other's ideas. Sometimes Brother Nee lost his temper and did not want to apologize. He would go to Sister Barber to complain and to ask her to judge the situation. Sister Barber, however, rebuked Brother Nee and said: "The Bible says the younger should obey the elder. You should obey him."
Brother Nee did not want to obey. He said, "I cannot possibly do this. A Christian should act reasonably." Sister Barber answered, "Whether it is reasonable or not, you need not care. The Scriptures say that the younger should obey the elder."
Brother Nee had wept two days previously, after the dispute, and now after listening to Miss Barber, he was angry and wept again. He wished that he could have been born earlier, so that the other brother would have to obey him. It so happened that the brother who was older than Brother Nee did not obey an even older brother in a later dispute. This time Brother Nee felt that he was obviously right and that his co-worker was wrong. This time he would win the victory. But when he went to Miss Barber, he said: "Whether the co-worker is wrong or not is another matter. While you are accusing your brother before me, are you like one who is bearing the cross? Are you like the Lamb?"
Brother Nee later testified: "That is all she said. I felt very ashamed. That year I learned some of the most precious lessons of my life."
Sister Barber really knew how to help others. Once Brother Nee wrote several good hymns in one night. He thought he would receive a compliment, but instead Sister Barber poured cold water on him. She said, "A hymn, like milk and honey, is the outflow of a life that has learned lessons and is dealt with. This cannot happen in one day and one night."
After Brother Nee decided to serve the Lord, he met Sister Barber. She asked him, "Are you serving the Lord? What does the Lord want you to do?" Brother Nee answered, "The Lord wants me to serve Him." Again she asked, "What were you going to do if the Lord didn't want you to serve Him?" He replied, "The Lord surely wants me to do something." Then she read from Matthew chapter 15 about the breaking of bread and asked, "How do you understand this passage?" Brother Nee said, "First the Lord took the loaves and fish in His hand. Through His blessing they were multiplied and fed four thousand."
Sister Barber spoke in a serious tone: "All the loaves in the Lord's hand were broken and given out by the Lord. The unbroken bread could not be transformed and feed others. Brother, please remember, many times I was just like the bread saying, 'Lord! I give myself to You.' However, in my heart I still held out hope, as if to say, 'Lord, even though I have given myself to You, don't break me.' We always want to offer the bread whole, not broken. But no loaf which has been put in the Lord's hand has ever been left unbroken."
Sister Barber often helped people through a touching word that met their need. One day an elderly sister was criticized for obeying the Lord, and she went to tell Sister Barber. She warned her, "If Satan attacks, you must learn to stand firm in the Lord. Beware of Satan's smile, lest you surrender." Another time she wrote a letter to Miss Dora Yu, saying: "If Satan can seize our thoughts, then he already controls our life." Whenever someone was sick, even if it was only a cold, she always asked: "Do you know why?"
The Lord's servant, Brother Chen, recalled the help he received by listening to Sister Barber's word: "She taught us the lessons of faith and encouraged me to walk the way of faith. She often told me: 'Don't be afraid; just believe.' I will never forget this word."
Once while praying with a younger brother, she read Ezekiel 44, the chapter about serving the Lord or serving the temple. She said: "Young brother, when I read this chapter about 20 years ago, I immediately closed the Bible, knelt down, and prayed: 'Lord! Let me serve You, not the temple.'"
The help that she gave these young brothers was more profitable than many conferences and messages. Later, it proved to be the most effective and permanent kind of help, since it supplied the receiver throughout his life.
"How beautiful are the feet of those who announce the news of good things!" (Rom. 10:15)
Although Sister Barber was recognized as a good teacher who knew how to perfect people, she still did not give up her gospel-preaching duty. About ten miles from Pagoda Anchorage, in the house of Mr. Lee, a seeking friend, Sister Barber was often seen cooking in the kitchen and preaching the gospel to the family and other friends in her broken Foochow dialect.
At first she felt awkward in preaching the gospel, because she could not speak much Chinese. Therefore, she hired Pastor Lee from the Anglican denomination to teach her the Foochow dialect. Before long she could speak. Because she wanted to save souls, she went with Pastor Lee to preach the gospel in Lian-chiang County. The Spirit of the Lord was with them. A young man named Peter Roan believed in the Lord. Then a group of older women received the Lord Jesus' salvation, left their idols, and turned to God. Some even gave their lives to the Lord and became Sister Barber's co-workers.
After a few years, the number of the believers increased. Sister Barber helped to raise up churches in Chantung and Lian-chiang County. In obedience to the Lord's word, she helped them only in spiritual things, to build up the Body of Christ. She would not touch anything concerning church administration. After several years' hard labor, the number of the co-workers also increased gradually. After being trained by Sister Barber, they worked in Chantung and Min-hour County. At that time Sister Ding, Sister Yeh, Sister Chen, and Sister Lee were added to the work and began to serve the Lord full-time.
Sister Barber was diligent and faithful to take the Lord's word into His field. When she preached the gospel, she was often despised and insulted. But she rejoiced in her sufferings for the Lord, for His gospel, and for the people's souls. She was not discouraged, and she did not lose heart. In laboring through a period of several decades as if it were one day, from the beginning to the end she never lost heart.
In keeping spiritual principles, Sister Barber was not only strict with herself; she was also strict with her co-workers. For example, when they went out to preach the gospel, they would take nothing from the Gentiles (3 John 7). She exhorted her co-workers to follow the twelve apostles in focusing on prayer and the preaching of the gospel. She disagreed with living a life of two sides:
preaching the gospel on the one hand, and making tents on the other.
Moreover, she did not preach the social gospel; she only preached the cross of Christ. Even though her co-workers came from different backgrounds, she encouraged them to have the heart of Christ and to be in one accord. They learned to preach the gospel, to be sanctified by being separated from worldly things and sins, and to be proper vessels that the Lord could use. She did not celebrate the Chinese New Year, and she was not influenced by the worldly fashion. Her co-workers kept an absolutely clear separation between male and female. There were few talks between the two; for the most part they only prayed for each other. One co-worker was rebuked by Sister Barber after he carried water with a 15-year-old female student.
She paid more attention to prayer than to work. She gathered the co-workers monthly for prayer. They used prayer to sustain the work in every place and to help it develop smoothly.
Although she was extremely strict with the co-workers, she was also full of love and consideration. At the age of 80, Sister Wang recalled the time when she had been called by the Lord 50 years earlier. She had left her teaching job to serve the Lord and to live by faith. The first time she came to Pagoda Anchorage and attended the Bible study meeting, Sister Barber gave her some money. The amount was small, but the giving revealed love. The memory remained so fresh in the heart of the receiver that, even ten years afterward, she would tell the story to everyone she met.
"Yes, Father" (Matt. 11:26)
Why did the Lord so use Sister Barber? What was the secret of her work? Clearly her ministry corresponded to her life. Brother Nee later explained, "The Lord's work is only the outflow of life. It is not a matter of working for the Lord, but of letting the Lord work in you." She could work for the Lord because she allowed the Lord to work on her and mold her.
She had a heart to love the Lord and to live unto Him. Once she was facing a situation that was difficult because the price it demanded involved everything she had. In this situation she lifted up her eyes with tears and said, "Lord! In order to satisfy Your heart, I am willing to have my heart broken."
Another time, Brother Nee asked her about her experiences of obeying and doing the will of God. She said, "Whenever God delays in telling me His will, I find that I still have a disobedient heart and an improper motive within me." She learned this through many, many experiences. She often asked Brother Nee, "Do you love God's will?" She did not ask, "Do you obey His will?"
One time Sister Barber was disputing with the Lord concerning a certain matter. She knew what the Lord wanted, and in her heart she truly wanted the same thing, but it was too difficult for her. Brother Nee heard her pray, "Lord, I admit that I am not willing to learn this lesson. But please do not surrender to me. Lord, please wait! I will surrender to You." She did not want the Lord to surrender to her and lessen His demands on her. She did not want anything other than to please the Lord. Several months after Sister Barber passed away, someone sent Brother Nee a box of her possessions. Among them was a note with these words: "Lord, thank You for this commandment: 'You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind!'"
She once said: "The secret to understanding the will of God is that 95% is a matter of submitting to the will of God, and only 5% is a matter of understanding." She herself proved to be a person who truly understood the will of God and knew God.
Once Brother Nee brought this question to her: "All in all, did the Lord request more from His disciples than they requested from Him?" Brother Nee thought that the Lord requested more.
Sister Barber answered, "No! We see the outward failures of men; the Lord sees their hidden victories." This kind of understanding must have been learned lesson by lesson before the Lord. No wonder she could be so confident in believing God and could stand so firmly in rejecting the enemy!
One time she was sick for four days in a row. She had no co-workers with her and no money, and even the cook had gone home. She asked God why she was sick. The Lord showed her clearly that the sickness was not from God, but was an attack from Satan. She told the Lord, "If I am wrong, then the sickness will continue. But if this is Satan's attack, then I shall not continue to be sick." She had already suffered with a high fever for four days, but she rose up immediately and wrote a hymn whose first line reads, "To the foe my word is always, 'No.'" After finishing the hymn, she went out to work; the sickness was gone. However, God did not only teach her lessons through sickness; He also arranged many other environments to test whether she could always say "yes" to the Father.
"The full knowledge of Him" (Eph. 1:17)
Sister Barber was rich and deep in the Lord, both in objective knowledge and in subjective experience. Brother Tzai-sheng Chen, who had lived in Pagoda Anchorage and was a co-worker of Sister Barber, summarized her understanding of the truth this way:
She believed that all Scripture is God-breathed and profitable for teaching, for conviction, for correction, for instruction in righteousness. She preached God's word by cutting straight the word of the truth. She led us to know the truth, to discern right and wrong, and to be honest and sincere. She prevented heresies and cults from coming into the church, fought against the evil spirit of temptation, and encouraged the saints to admonish one another, to pray, and to stand against the devil to resist his deception. She preached the truth of the kingdom, encouraging us to enter into the kingdom and to seek first His kingdom and His righteousness. She preached the truth of the cross - that we have died with Christ and have been buried with Him and resurrected with Him - and admonished us to reckon ourselves to be dead to sin, but living to God in Christ Jesus. "It is no longer
I who live, but it is Christ who lives in me" (Gal. 2:20). She preached the truth of overcoming, admonishing us to answer God's calling, to be an overcomer of God, to be a soldier of Christ, and to follow our Captain into glory through sufferings. She preached Christ's second coming, so that we would not be foolish virgins nor evil and slothful slaves "burying our talent" (Matt25:1-2, 26).
The most striking points in her subjective spiritual experience were the lessons of faith that she learned and the way of faith in which she walked. Brother Tzai-sheng Chen wrote the following about these experiences: Sister Barber had good health, and by God's grace she retained her youthfulness. Her freshness was like Moses', and her physical strength, like Caleb's. Throughout her life she had no serious illness, only minor sicknesses. She advocated being healed by God, believing that God's wonders and signs would follow us. Therefore, the co-workers would not see a doctor if they were sick, nor would they take medicine. Every sickness was to be healed by God to testify that He is the Almighty God.
In daily living, Sister Barber learned to watch for God's provision in very small things, even in one bar of soap or one hair clip. Her hair was blond, so it didn't match her black hair clip, which was made in China. She prayed concerning this. Not long after, she received a blond hair clip from abroad.
There was a sister who had three daughters and one son. They were very poor and could not support themselves any longer, so they sent a daughter, Yuh-jy Liu, to the Lai family as a maid. Miss Liu was very beautiful, and one member of the Lai family wanted to take her as a concubine. When the mother and daughter heard this, they wept together, because the Lai family would not release her unless a payment of $240 was made. Sister Barber heard about this matter. Her heart of love could not bear to allow Sister Liu to become a concubine. (By that time the mother and daughter had been saved.) She encouraged both mother and daughter to pray to God. Sister Barber did not have much money at the time, so she also prayed that God would provide the ransom for them. God indeed heard their prayer and sent $240 from abroad to ransom Sister Yuh-jy Liu, who later married Brother Chu.
Like Abraham of old, Sister Barber not only learned to receive Isaac from the Lord's hand, she also learned to return Isaac to His hand. In her old age she once hoped for a fur coat to protect her from the cold. She prayed, and the Lord touched a believer in the USA to send her a fur coat. One day while wearing the coat, she encountered a brother, who said: "Sister Barber, you are the Lord's co-worker. How could you wear such a nice fur coat?" When Sister Barber heard this, she put away the coat. From that day on, until the Lord received her to Himself, she never again wore that fur coat. If the coat would stumble others, she would rather not wear it.
The Bible says, "The righteousness of God is revealed in [the gospel] out of faith to faith" (Rom. 1:17). Faith is like a plant, which grows. The following precious story shows that Sister Barber's faith not only grew but also matured. One time, Sister Barber felt that God had commanded her to prepare ten additional rooms or apartments specifically for hospitality. She prayed for this. God arranged to close an engineering school, and the building was subleased to her. Four years later, this school reopened. Brother Watchman Nee's father was a trustee on the school board. When Brother Nee heard the news, he went to Sister Barber and asked whether she had heard about it. She said that she had already been notified that the school would reopen for the fall semester. Two engineers from America had been hired, and they were on their way. According to the school authorities, the reopening could not be avoided. Brother Nee asked her whether they should move her or not. She answered, "We're not moving." He asked her if she had prayed, and she said, "No." This time she did not even need to pray. Another brother told her she was being deceived by Satan. She said, "Wait and see." Brother Nee asked how she could be so confident. She said, "God is not joking with us. He said to take the apartment, so I did. He did not stop me. How could He kick us out?" So she took her summer vacation peacefully in Kuling (later the location of Brother Nee's training center), as if nothing had happened. Just when she was about to go back, a letter suddenly arrived. It said that the school would not open and asked her to rent the building again, because the school had gone bankrupt.
Sister Barber gave Brother Nee, who was very young at that time, much spiritual help. However, they did have some differences in their understanding of the truth. For example, they held different views about sisters prophesying. Sister Barber's cousin, Sister Lee, later testified that they never argued about this matter. Sometimes Brother Nee came to Pagoda Anchorage. Sister Barber generously gave him the podium to speak. She herself sat and listened quietly. This shows how deeply the Lord had worked within her. It requires a life of selflessness to endure others' differing viewpoints while remembering their merits. All these things affected young Brother Nee very deeply.
There is no doubt that Sister Barber received much help from Brother Panton in understanding the Bible. The Lord's return is not just a matter of knowing but also of waiting. She was truly one who lived for the Lord's return. This is evident in the many hymns she wrote concerning waiting for the Lord's coming back. On the eve of 1925, Brother Nee and Sister Barber were praying together. She prayed, "Lord, will You really let the year 1925 pass away? Although it is the last day of the year, I still ask You to come today." A few months later Brother Nee met her on the street. Sister Barber took his hands and said, "This is strange. Why has He still not come, even up to today? Maybe He will come before next year." As she walked with Brother Nee on the street, she said that they might meet Him at the next corner.
She, like the Shulamite, was drawn by the Lord all her life. She also was not alone. As in Song of Songs 1:4, the one who is drawn is the Shulamite, but "we" - many virgins - "will run after You."
"I have fought the good fight" (2 Tim. 4:7)
Sister Barber was full of faith. She would not see a doctor, take medicine, or take an injection when she was sick. At the end of February 1930 she contracted enteritis. Her cousin, Sister Lee, was also sick and bedridden. Sister Barber asked her roommate, Sister Mu-She Lee, to do the massage for her high fever. After her temperature came down, she prayed for many of her co-workers by name. Sister Tsou asked her, "Sister Barber, when you should be praying for yourself, why do you only pray for us?" She answered, "All of you co-workers are always on my mind. I am burdened, so I pray for you." After several days of sickness, she left this world. It is said that before she departed she was shouting, "Life, life!"
She had a few hundred dollars at the time of her death. After her funeral expenses, only about twelve dollars were left. She had truly stored up her treasure in the heavens. Upon hearing the news of her death, many co-workers cried as desperately as if they had lost their own parents. Brother Tsung-Shin Chen wept, saying, "I can't reach my spiritual mother, who loved me and corrected me." Some co-workers, like Sister Mu-Shan Lee, suffered a grief that could not be soothed until they received a letter from overseas that said, "This thing is from the Lord."
Sister Barber was buried in a cemetery for foreigners on top of the mountain at Pagoda Anchorage. Several brothers, including Brother Lan-Ju Wang, bore her coffin from her house to the cemetery. Her tombstone was engraved, "The Resting Place of Sister Barber."
The following letter appeared in The Dawn magazine, II, 1925-26, 285, in response to an article that had appeared in The Dawn called "Testing the Supernatural."
Your valuable article on "Testing the Supernatural" in the May Dawn has interested us deeply. Here in China demon powers are manifesting themselves in new ways; and even in the Churches there have been cases of evil spirits pretending to be Jesus Christ.
One case may be of interest. Last autumn, near Amoy, in a preacher's house one night, a voice was heard in the ceiling and a light appeared. The voice professed to be that of the former preacher who had lived in that house, and had died there twenty years ago. It soon became known all over the country-side that the old pastor was speaking from the roof of his former dwelling, to any who would go and hear, and crowds flocked day by day. The utterances were extraordinary: -full of Scripture; exhortations to live a holy life were frequent; and people of evil character dare not go, because no sooner were they seated, than the voice would address them by name, and ask them to repent of their sins. In most cases, sins known only to the person and the spirit addressing them were revealed. There is a well-known man in Amoy, a Chinese physician trained in America, and a real Christian. His fees were very high; and to his amazement, when he went to the house, the spirit called on him to repent of the sin of covetousness, and commanded him to reduce his fees. So great was the effect on him that he now treats poor patients for nothing and is in many ways a transformed character.
A brother who preaches the Gospel in the Amoy district came to see me and asked me if I did not believe that this spirit was really the voice of God. He said, "No one in Amoy, scarcely, doubts it; though a few missionaries perhaps may be a little skeptical." I told him about testing the spirits, and advised him to use the test of 1 John 4:2. The spirit never becomes visible, but often a brilliant light is seen hovering over the house.
Ultimately the test was put by a worker we know and trust. After putting the test, there was silence for about half an hour; and then the voice said, "Read 1 Corinthians 13:13." As you say in the article, the "not confessing" is sufficient proof of the origin of the manifestation. Many Chinese Christians have been utterly deceived; they well know the supernaturalism of heathenism, but it has never entered their heads that a demon could manifest himself in a Christian church, use Scriptural terms, exhort to goodness instead of evil, and press the reading of the Bible.
I am, etc.,
MARGARET E. BARBER
The following letter was sent to D.M. Panton regarding Brother Watchman Nee, a brother of 23 years of age. Permission has been kindly granted by Lewis Schoettle (Schoettle Publishing Company) to reprint this letter, the original of which is in his possession.
S. China April 2, 1926
Dear Mr. Panton,
I am sure you will be interested in Dr. Huang's letter. I sent him Govett's "Race & Crown." I only lent it as I have only that one precious copy. He has also the "Vanguard Reprints" which are so precious. Can I get the leaflets from Mr. Tilney? Nothing you ever printed was more valuable than those concise rich Bible Studies called "Vanguard Reprints." Why not print one each month in The Dawn?
Please do not let Faithful Luke & Watchman Nee (Henry Nga is his home name) worry you with letters. It is so good & kind of you to have written once to them. They are likely to be tiresome. They write to Mr. Wright Hay or any Editor whose address they can get & do not understand how precious time is to a busy Editor. For many reasons I think you should not be feeling obliged even to answer their letters. These two young men are in great danger. They have a mental apprehension of God's Truth which unless lived out will be their peril.
Three sisters & one brother [were] baptized here this week by Leland Wang. We have precious bands of village men & women coming for teaching. Faithful is splendid with personal work & this work amongst men & Miss Fek & Miss Ding are much used among the women.
Satan hates this witness. I feel his rage at times but Jesus is Victor & the Lord God is a sun & shield. The Lord will give grace (for today) & glory (Rapture!). So we press on.
May you be shielded. We pray for you. May you be kept in God's quiver!
Yours ever gratefully
"His Truth shall be thy shield." Hallelujah! [Written along the left edge:] Dear Folks - Helen Clark! Her last letter drove me to my knees. The Lord keeps her.
After Sister Barber went to be with the Lord, many words of remembrance were expressed especially by those who personally knew her. Two among these were D.M. Panton and Watchman Nee.
Miss Margaret E. Barber, also in Fukien and a contributor to The Dawn, is another magnificent stalwart for Christ who has passed to her rest. These leave us an imperishable inspiration. In Miss Barber's last letter to the Editor, all unconscious of her call, sheen closed a single verse from her own poem.
Just a few more miles, beloved! and our feet shall ache no more; No more sin, and no more sorrow - hush thee, Jesus went before: And I hear Him sweetly whispering - "Faint not, fear not, still press on. For it may be ere tomorrow the long journey will be done." [Hymns, #628] -The Dawn, Vol. VII, 1930-31, 373.
We feel most sorrowful concerning the news of the passing away of Miss Barber in Lo-Hsing Pagoda, Fukien. She was one who was very deep in the Lord, and in my opinion, the kind of fellowship she had with the Lord and the faithfulness she expressed to the Lord are rarely found on this earth. In reading the hymn published on the cover of this issue of the magazine, one can imagine the kind of person she was. -"An Open Letter," dated March 12, 1930, in The Present Testimony, Issue No. 13.
(Watchman Nee, The Collected Works of Watchman Nee, Set One, Vol. 8, 96. Anaheim, CA: Living Stream Ministry, 1992).
Buried? Yes, but it is seed
From which Continents may feed;
Millions yet may bless the day
When that seed was laid away.
Buried! hidden! out of sight!
Dwelling in the deepest night;
Losing, underneath the sod,
Everything, except its God.
Buried, unremember'd, lost-
So thinks man: but all the cost
God has counted to display
Life abundant one glad day.
Art thou buried? God's pure seed
Doth thy heart in silence bleed?
Change thy sighing into song,
Thus alone can harvests come.
Delivered through Death!
Art thou delivered unto death?
He was; and still He reigns!
Death only can unloose thy bonds,
And snap the tightening chains.
Fear not to die, for only thus
The power of God can free
Unto undying, glorious life,
We die, to find that death is life,
That suffering is power;
That death brings victory, that our foe
Is robbed of all his power;
We die to rise in endless life,
For evermore to be
In conflict, undismayed and calm,
For death has set us free.
Dead, yet delivered; die, O soul,
Trust God to bring thee through;
Wrecked on thy God, e'en death is gain.
Fear nothing; die; and go
Through death to prove God's mighty power
To deal with such a foe;
To die in faith, a risen life
By faith, henceforth to know.
Dead, yet delivered; short of death,
The power must be restrained
Which else would snap self's iron bands,
And break the tightening chains;
So die; and dying, God will loose
His power to set thee free,
And thou shalt then, through Calvary's Cross,
In Christ, a conqueror be.
Blessed mighty Holy Ghost,
Fill me to the uttermost;
Let my life Thy channel be,
Just a channel, Lord, for Thee;
Through me all Thy fullness pour,
Give me ever more and more.
Blessed, mighty Holy Ghost,
Fill me to the uttermost;
Be it unto me, O Lord,
Now, according to Thy word,
Let the life of Jesus be,
Ever filling, even me.
Blessed, mighty Holy Ghost,
Fill me to the uttermost;
Cleansed and holy, pure and clean,
Let the life of Christ be seen,
Hold o'er me Thy gracious sway,
Every hour of every day.
Blessed, mighty Holy Ghost,
Fill me to the uttermost;
For Thy love, Thy light, Thy power,
Just a channel hour by hour,
Till my Saviour's Face I see,
Fill me, Lord, fill even me.
The Fourth Watch
The roaring sea of nations in upheaval,
The Church afloat upon the angry foam,
The LORD, a Watcher, sees her toil, her peril,
And in the fourth watch of the night He'll come.
Midnight has passed: eyes strain thro' inky darkness,
But see not yet the shining of His face:
Lest hearts should faint, or Hope should fold her pinions,
The morning star in yonder heavens we trace.
The morning star gleams on the rolling billows,
A radiant light amid the angry storm:
Within its beams we toil in rowing, saying,
"In the fourth watch, perchance, we'll see His form."
In the fourth watch-so toil a little longer,
Battling against the storm, the wind, the tide.
How soon we shall forget it all, beloved,
When, with our Lord, we reach the other side!
(Mark 6:47-50; Rev. 2:28)
I worship and praise and adore
And glorify Thee, blessed Lord;
Tho' the foe may his uttermost do,
He never can alter Thy Word.
It stands! though the heavens may fall,
It stands! though the earth pass away,
And on it, I'm standing in triumph today.
I'm trusting in what Thou hast said,
As my barque ploughs her way thro' the sea;
Her chart and her compass Thy Word,
All glory, Lord Jesus, to Thee!
I rest on Thy promise divine,
And smile at the gathering storm;
My barque cannot sink, for I know,
Thou wilt hasten Thy Word to perform.
I worship and praise and adore,
For ever Thy Name I will bless;
Thy Word is sufficient for me,
However prolonged life's distress,
I triumph in all Thou hast said,
It stands, whatsoever betide;
I glorify Thee, blessed Lord,
For this, my infallible Guide.
God Will Answer
God will answer when, to thee,
Not a possibility
Of deliverance seems near;
It is then He will appear.
God will answer when you pray;
Yea, though mountains block thy way,
At His word, a way will be,
E'en through mountains, made for thee.
God, who still divides the sea,
Willingly will work for thee;
God, before whom mountains fall,
Promises to hear thy call.
If the Lord Still Tarry
If the Lord still tarry,
He will undertake;
Mountains may be shaken,
Billows o'er me break;
But His word of promise
Ever will endure;
God, our God, is faithful,
And His help is sure.
Holy Spirit, Flow through Me
Holy Spirit, flow through me,
Let my life Thy channel be;
Let no doubt obstruct Thy way,
Flow through me, O Lord, today.
Flow in rivers, not a rill,
All Thy word to me fulfil.
Holy Spirit, flow through me,
I would just a channel be
For Thy mighty living tide,
Reaching souls both far and wide.
Flow in rivers, not a rill,
All Thy word to me fulfil.
Beloved, should the brook run dry
And should no visible supply
Gladden thine eyes, then wait to see
God work a miracle for thee:
Thou canst not want, for God has said
He will supply His own with bread.
His word is sure. Creative power
Will work for thee from hour to hour,
And thou, with all Faith's Host, shalt prove
God's Hand of power, God's Heart of love.
(1 Kings 17:3)
"Is Thy God Able...?"
Thou servant of the living God,
Whilst lions round thee roar,
Look up and trust and praise His name,
And all His ways adore;
For even now, in peril dire,
He works to set thee free,
And in a way known but to Him,
Shall thy deliverance be.
Dost wait while lions round thee stand,
Dost wait in gloom, alone?
And looking up above thy head
See but a sealed stone?
Praise in the dark! Yea, praise His Name,
Who trusted thee to see
His mighty power displayed again
For thee, His saint, for thee.
Thou servant of the living God,
Thine but to wait and praise;
The living God, Himself will work,
To Him thine anthem raise.
Though undelivered, thou dost wait,
The God who works for thee,
When His hour strikes, will with a word,
Set thee for ever free.
"That No Man Take Thy Crown"
Be content to be despised,
Be content to bear the shame.
Seek no earthly sordid prize,
Ye who bear His Holy Name!
'Wait in faith that glorious day
When, before the Father's Throne,
Jesus will your name confess,
All your tears and labours own.
Be content whate'er your lot
With no settled dwelling here;
Be a pilgrim with the Lord,
Let Him dry the secret tear,
Let Him be your heart's delight,
His approval your reward;
Till in Heaven's unsullied light
You shall stand with Christ your Lord.
Be content to win your prize
At the cost of tears and blood;
Earthly loss or gain despise,
Tread the path that Jesus trod.
Never take a look behind,
Keep the promised crown in view;
Thus, unmindful of the cost,
Thus, come gloriously through.
"We which Live"
LIVE, in the love of God,
Deal with the Lord alone!
Live in the blaze of that white light,
That beats about God's Throne.
LIVE, cleaving to His Word,
Its faithfulness to prove;
Live, looking for thy Lord's return,
Live, feeding on His love.
LIVE, so that life on earth
A foretaste shall become
Of perfect life where God is king,
Thou heir of Jesus' throne!
LIVE, counting all but loss,
Save that which draws thee in
To that great heart which broke for thee,
Because it bore thy sin.
LIVE, counting nothing gain,
Save that which makes Christ dear;
Live, set apart to prove to men
That earth and heaven are near.
LIVE till thy life on earth
Shall so unearthly be
That Christ shall catch thee to His Throne,
Child of eternity! (2 Cor. 4:11)
"The Will of the Lord Be Done"
"No!" to the will of the devil,
"Yes!" to the will of the Lord,
So, Lord, Thy purpose shall triumph
Through Thine omnipotent Word.
With Thine authority clothe me
Now, as I stand in Thy will;
With Thine own Spirit empower me
All Thine own plan to fulfil.
"No!" to the will of the devil,
"Yes!" to the will of the Lord.
This be my attitude always;
Saviour, protection afford
Lest, as I move at Thy bidding,
Satan should close up the way;
Stand with me, Blessed Lord Jesus,
As I Thy precepts obey.
"No!" to the will of the devil,
"Yes!" to the will of the Lord,
Over the mountains so rugged,
Over the seas at Thy Word.
Naught shall deter or molest me,
If, Blessed Lord, Thou wilt be
Saviour, Defender, and Keeper,
As I go onward with Thee.
Other Poems by M.E. Barber
1. Glorious, mighty Name of Jesus (Hymns, 73)
2. Lift that Name high! That glorious Name (Hymns, 77)
3. Lord, with Thy Holy Ghost (Hymns, 269)
4. In the wilderness for God! (Hymns, 352)
5. Thou Magnet of my soul! (Hymns, 356)
6. If the path I travel (Hymns, 377)
7. There is always something over (Hymns, 595)
8. Via Bethlehem we journey (Hymns, 628)
9. "Wrecked outright on Jesus' breast" (Hymns, 637)
10. Can you be obedient? (Hymns, 657)
11. "On toward the goal!" Press on! (Hymns, 662)
12. Deep down into the depths of this Thy Name (Hymns, 671)
13. The days may yet grow darker (Hymns, 710)
14. In the mighty Name of Jesus (Hymns, 775)
15. "Ask in faith," the Name of Jesus (Hymns, 776)
16. Keep up the song of faith (Hymns, 778)
17. "Keep the incense burning" (Hymns, 790)
18. I dare not be defeated (Hymns, 877)
19. Hallelujah! Christ is Victor (Hymns, 890)
20. Not where we elect to go (Hymns, 907)
21. Watch! for the morning is breaking (Hymns, 957)
22. He looked for a city and lived in a tent (Hymns, 974)
23. To the foe my word is always, "No" (Hymns, 880) (Adapted by Watchman Nee)
1. Cowman, L.B. Streams in the Desert. Grand Rapids: The Zondervan Corp., 1997, pp. 207-208.
2. Family Records Centre, 1 Myddelton Street, London EC1.
3. Hymns. Anaheim: Living Stream Ministry, 1988.
4. Kinnear, Angus I. Against the Tide. Fort Washington, PA: Christian Literature Crusade, 1973. (Pictures of M.E.B. from 1896 and 1928.)
5. Lee, Witness. Watchman Nee: A Seer of the Divine Revelation in the Present Age. Anaheim: Living Stream Ministry, 1991.
6. Nee, Watchman. The Collected Works of Watchman Nee, Vol. 33. Anaheim: Living Stream Ministry, 1992.
7. Panton, D.M., editor. The Dawn.London: Thynne & Co., Ltd.
8. Personal correspondence of M.E. Barber to D.M. Panton, April 2, 1926.
9. Surrey Chapel: Book of Remembrance, 1854-1954. Norwich: Surrey Chapel, 1954. (Picture of M.E.B. from 1909.)
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